A little bit of vulnerability

Lord,
Help me be earnest with my words.
Help me understand what it means to seek You with everything I have.
I want my prayers and intentions to be pure and genuine.

But some days it's hard for me to feel You.
I know You're still there, and You still love me.
I know Your love for me is forever strong.
But I know You're not just an emotion.
You're an action.
Loving You and living for You doesn't always mean that every quiet time will result in a spiritual revelation.
There won't always be that feeling of closeness and awe.

But it's knowing that faith is greater than how I'm feeling or how I'm not feeling.
It's loving You despite my insecurities.
It's searching for You in a crowded room of loneliness.
It's choosing to live for You each and every day knowing that I'll still struggle.
Help me overcome my insecurities and know that it's just You and it's always only ever been You.