God's will for my life?

So, as many of you know I am attending a bible study on Sunday nights that really challenges me. It challenges my thoughts and beliefs, but mostly my comfort. Everyone that attends is really nice and are all really great people. But I've never had to put myself out there like this before. Back in undergrad, I had the same bible study all four years. We all became really close and formed some amazing friendships, and while my beliefs were challenged, my comfort wasn't.

So tonight we talked about God's will for our lives. And when you get down to the nitty gritty, am I really following God's will? Or am I following the plans that I have for my life? This is something I've been questioning for a while. It's also something that really scares me. I don't wanna use "God's will" as an excuse for disobedience, but I were 100% submitted to God, what would He ask me to do? Would I be called to a different country? Would I be led to a different occupation? These questions are so frightening because in all honesty, I'm not sure. I've found some comfort in the fact that while it is difficult to know what God's will is in the long run, what I can focus on is the here and the now.

Of course I stress about the long term plan. I would like to be married by this ___ age, have ___ kids, live in suburbia, etc. And while there's no harm in wanting these things, planning them without accordance to His will can only lead to trouble. At bible study, one thing that we talked about was what if living in God's will, is taking it day by day? Maybe He wants me to work on the small things rather than travel to some exotic country to reach people. Maybe His plans for me aren't considered "Great" or "Elite" but their purpose is just as important. Maybe stepping outside of my comfort zone in class is the plan He has for me this week. It doesn't sound grand or exciting, but for me, this is outside of my comfort zone. While this is something I have trouble with, I'm really learning to be at peace with it.

This week especially I'm praying for the ability to step outside of my comfort zone. I'm praying for the strength and comfort that only God has to offer in these decisions. I'm also praying for peace that through time God will show me His will. I just have to take it day by day.